Today,my pre-U life had ended officially..When i'm waiting for the beginning of another new chapter of my life,ironically,I have no idea of what should I do now!!! NOW,there is a lot of unknowns stuck in my mind and i feel like it is going to explode!!!

•  WHAT SHOULD I STUDY AFTER MY A-LEVEL?? 
•  WHICH UNI SHOULD I GO AFTER MY PRE-U??
•  WHAT SHOULD I DO DURING THE 3 MONTHS BREAK?? 
•  HOW BAD IS THE RESULT I WILL GET?? 
•  WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU RECENTLY??WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO YOU??!
•  WHY WILL THING GO THIS WAY?? 
•  DID I DID ANYTHING WRONG??DID I!?!? 

 WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!??!!!!!!!!!!!

 I feel like a lot of question marks drop on me suddenly,and it really makes me feel so frustrated with it...And it brings sleepless night to me =(

Bad or Good??

You are the mountain, you are the rock
You are the cord and you're the spark
You are the eagle, you are the lark
You are the world and you're remarkable

It's not hard for me to love you
Hard for me to love you
unconditionally


time:1657
date:10/4/2012

The moment which i felt be loved,and it is no more a uncertainty to me,but it is a confirmation <3

time:0100
date:18/4/2012

we are not be able to see each other for the past 7 days including today..The feeling is so uneasy and bad..Maybe i was used to see You everyday,almost,so it might be a bit hard for me to handle my emotion now..
Recently,my emotion has became very vulnerable..Failure,frustration,upset,nervous and fear strike on me at the same time..argh!!!It feels like a huge rock drop on me =(
And 2 more weeks left,its time to arm ourselves and ready to war..my nerves tense to the MAXIMUM..Besides,it also indicates that we are going leave this island soon and go for our own ways..Guys,i will miss you all and all the best in the future!!

突然没了安全感~why??To be honest,i myself also have no idea of why it gone suddenly?Why it will happen on me??Weaker,I'm~

One thing im sure of is HE will always be my side no matter what happen..HE will give me strength when im weak,HE will comfort me with HIS hand when im upset..Father God,please give me strength and help me to survive over this messy emotion and feeling..AMEN!!!

FRIENDS AND LOVE CAN COME TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME <3

Today,fifth of March..Its been 2 weeks time,live without the presence of luke..For your information,he had left to Sarawak to continue his study in an well-known uni,Curtin of technology..According to info he gave to us,he is good and the life there is far more interesting compared with his life when in KDU..
Ohya,the moment when he stepped into the airport and ready for his departure,Ong,elin and teng ming cried except me..When we were on the way back to home,elin said:"ah neng didnt cry,he gek deng deng."When i heard of this,its like a thorn that suddenly pricked on my heart.I want to clarify that i didnt cry doesn't mean i dont miss his presence,but I know we will meet again,soon..And he will have all my blessing there.
I'm here to wish my best friend lucas,a belated good luck and all the best in your new life there and take all the challenges or obstacles as your life experience..And God will lead you the way..
Now is already the starting of march,mean A2 is just around the corner..arghhh!!The limited time do really exert a big pressure on me..This is because im doing my A-level in 10 months time which most of the people do it in 16 months..Everything is moving in a faster pace compared to the others and the syllabus is a bit heavy for me..But i know i have to overcome all of this in order to get into a better study environment and also a better life..Start from now,i have to keep my nerves tense and prepare myself for the upcoming exam!!!May God be with me by all the time~
Recently,someone has managed to walk into my life..and its no more me alone..
But the main problem that lies between me and her is,the TIME..the time left for us is just so little,not more than 5 months..I will try my best to build a more stable base of us before i leave..Hope everything will be fine,and history won't repeat~

Like what the lyrics(i wont give by jason mraz)said,I wont give up,not only in love and also my future and my friends!!