Today,my pre-U life had ended officially..When i'm waiting for the beginning of another new chapter of my life,ironically,I have no idea of what should I do now!!! NOW,there is a lot of unknowns stuck in my mind and i feel like it is going to explode!!!

•  WHAT SHOULD I STUDY AFTER MY A-LEVEL?? 
•  WHICH UNI SHOULD I GO AFTER MY PRE-U??
•  WHAT SHOULD I DO DURING THE 3 MONTHS BREAK?? 
•  HOW BAD IS THE RESULT I WILL GET?? 
•  WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU RECENTLY??WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO YOU??!
•  WHY WILL THING GO THIS WAY?? 
•  DID I DID ANYTHING WRONG??DID I!?!? 

 WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!??!!!!!!!!!!!

 I feel like a lot of question marks drop on me suddenly,and it really makes me feel so frustrated with it...And it brings sleepless night to me =(

Bad or Good??

You are the mountain, you are the rock
You are the cord and you're the spark
You are the eagle, you are the lark
You are the world and you're remarkable

It's not hard for me to love you
Hard for me to love you
unconditionally


time:1657
date:10/4/2012

The moment which i felt be loved,and it is no more a uncertainty to me,but it is a confirmation <3

time:0100
date:18/4/2012

we are not be able to see each other for the past 7 days including today..The feeling is so uneasy and bad..Maybe i was used to see You everyday,almost,so it might be a bit hard for me to handle my emotion now..
Recently,my emotion has became very vulnerable..Failure,frustration,upset,nervous and fear strike on me at the same time..argh!!!It feels like a huge rock drop on me =(
And 2 more weeks left,its time to arm ourselves and ready to war..my nerves tense to the MAXIMUM..Besides,it also indicates that we are going leave this island soon and go for our own ways..Guys,i will miss you all and all the best in the future!!

突然没了安全感~why??To be honest,i myself also have no idea of why it gone suddenly?Why it will happen on me??Weaker,I'm~

One thing im sure of is HE will always be my side no matter what happen..HE will give me strength when im weak,HE will comfort me with HIS hand when im upset..Father God,please give me strength and help me to survive over this messy emotion and feeling..AMEN!!!

FRIENDS AND LOVE CAN COME TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME <3

Today,fifth of March..Its been 2 weeks time,live without the presence of luke..For your information,he had left to Sarawak to continue his study in an well-known uni,Curtin of technology..According to info he gave to us,he is good and the life there is far more interesting compared with his life when in KDU..
Ohya,the moment when he stepped into the airport and ready for his departure,Ong,elin and teng ming cried except me..When we were on the way back to home,elin said:"ah neng didnt cry,he gek deng deng."When i heard of this,its like a thorn that suddenly pricked on my heart.I want to clarify that i didnt cry doesn't mean i dont miss his presence,but I know we will meet again,soon..And he will have all my blessing there.
I'm here to wish my best friend lucas,a belated good luck and all the best in your new life there and take all the challenges or obstacles as your life experience..And God will lead you the way..
Now is already the starting of march,mean A2 is just around the corner..arghhh!!The limited time do really exert a big pressure on me..This is because im doing my A-level in 10 months time which most of the people do it in 16 months..Everything is moving in a faster pace compared to the others and the syllabus is a bit heavy for me..But i know i have to overcome all of this in order to get into a better study environment and also a better life..Start from now,i have to keep my nerves tense and prepare myself for the upcoming exam!!!May God be with me by all the time~
Recently,someone has managed to walk into my life..and its no more me alone..
But the main problem that lies between me and her is,the TIME..the time left for us is just so little,not more than 5 months..I will try my best to build a more stable base of us before i leave..Hope everything will be fine,and history won't repeat~

Like what the lyrics(i wont give by jason mraz)said,I wont give up,not only in love and also my future and my friends!!

Life in KDU

This is the 2nd week i stay in peneng and study in kdu as well...Everything is progressing as routinely as possible..Everyday,i wake up at 8 something,take bath then walk to kdu..Go into class and start studying..One thing that i will never do in my secondary school is used to happen now in kdu..That is i will take out my works and start doing it when i go into the class...For those friends who knew me well should know that i never touch any homework that given by "cikgu" in my secondary school last time..And i would kept all those exercise books for next year,next year and next year >.< ...So it mean that i never stepped into koperasi to buy any exercise books for those past few years..hahaha..a bit lame huh??
anyway,i feel different of studying in college and in any SMK...I will never feel sleepy during the lecturing..And i dont have to wear on any "uniform" or tie...And i do really love and enjoy the process of carrying on an experiment with my classmates which i never have this kind of feeling before...hahahaha
*actually i got not much to say,i just want to update my blog...And it is my life here now in peneng ^^

First day in KDU!!!

Well,today is my first day in KDU and i moved into my hostel on 5 June..
Although it wasn't my first time here,but the feeling inside me is "hot"...haha..
In my hostel,there are 4 person including me are doing A level in KDU..Three of them were straight 10 As' student...This causes me to be more tension,argh!!!But is it really my pleasure to meet them and live together with them for the up coming 18 months..
A level,undeniably is a very tough exam..In order to score a flying colour result,study damn damn hard is inevitable..Haiz...Leave it to God's leading..May God bless me and luke as well which is going to sit for the final exam in this year....
That's all for today..I hope that i can enjoy the life and the process of learning and everything at the rest of the days i have in KDU...

love is never ugly

here is the synopsis of this movie---
A curse transforms a handsome and arrogant young man into everything he detests in this contemporary retelling of BEAUTY AND THE BEAST. Wealthy Kyle Kingson (Alex Pettyfer) has everything a teenager could want in life, but he still gets off on humiliating the weaker and less attractive. When Kyle invites his misfit classmate Kendra (Mary-Kate Olsen) to an environmental rally at their school, she questions his motivations but reluctantly accepts. Later, Kyle blows Kendra off, prompting the spurned goth girl to cast a dark spell on the swaggering egotist. The spell causes Kyle to transform into an unsightly creature that strikes fear into the heart of everyone he meets, and the only way to reverse it is for him to find someone who can love him for who he is on the inside. Subsequently sent by his repulsed father (Peter Krause) to live in Brooklyn, Kyle forges a tenuous friendship with his kindly housekeeper (Lisa Gay Hamilton) and his blind tutor (Neil Patrick Harris). When Kyle witnesses a drug addict in a desperate struggle with a menacing dealer, he intervenes, promising to protect the addict under the condition that his beautiful daughter, Lindy (Vanessa Hudgens), comes to live with the unsightly recluse in his sprawling Brooklyn home. Over time, the two forge a relationship that grows much deeper than anything Kyle has ever experienced before.

I had seen this movie's trailer for many times already,but my mind kept telling me that this movie is very boring,unattractive..After i had watched this show,my mind is totally changed.Actually,it is not that boring as i thought.But,the story line really attract me and i was just that focus on the screen during the show.Maybe it is because of i like to watch beauty and the beast(disney cartoon)..And i think the major reason of why girls like this show so much is the love story of kyle and Lindy.This is because their love is fantastic...keke...
Anyway,this is really good show...I think you all should watch it in the theater instead of download it from the internet and watch it with a 14'inches'' box..

5/3/2011

"sorry...sorry...sorry..."(my alarm rang).SHIT,i was late...I settle all my stuff in 15 min.Yesterday was luke's 1st day piano performance in Sunway Carnival Mall.We planned to go there and give him ours support.We(me,ck,ary,yubin)left my house at around 12 noon.We planned to have some shows after luke's performance.Unfortunately,beastly and black swan are not available in Sunway..So we changed our location to QBM..NENG!!Someone was calling me,so i turned back and see who is it..What i saw is a ordinary boy with a ordinary bag and extraordinary piano skill..keke..Yup..He is luke,and he was totally sweated at that time..He rushed down the elevator and ran toward the main entrance where there is the place he work..He sat in front of the piano and start playing,but he had to warmed up first i think.When he start playing,everyone near the piano was shocked and impressed including me^^
Suddenly,the atmosphere become soft,relaxing and EMO...wakaka..
ps:Luke,u really impress me with ur piano..